To work or not to work??????

Well today I sit here with a heavy heart. Not sure what to do. The dayhome thing was going good but now....... I am left with no money and not enough kids to pay the bills so I wonder Do I go back to work??? I prob. only need to go back 2 days a week but it is so hard to leave the baby. I went back to work with my first son when he was only 4 months old and I worked a 45hr work week. I remember missing out on so much. I look over the past year with dj and see how much he has changed and the new things he does everyday. I listen to all the new words and watch for new expressions and think Do I want to miss this? I guess I am lucky that If I do go back to work it is only 2 days and many mom's have to work that 45hr week. So I guess by my rambeling on I have answered my ouw question........ 2 days is not bad I just have to suck it up and doing it! So I guess the answer is I go back to work :-(